My work is the immersing of self in the creative process. With each piece, I learn more about who I am and why I am in this world. I use the action of creating as an opportunity to introspect and rest in the state of being. By using my artistic practice in this way, I am able to scrutinize my thoughts, beliefs, relationships and perception of reality. I lean into what makes me uncomfortable in a setting that is removed from outer criticism and my own expectations. This gives me space to recognize and fully process my perception of life. Often times, I am able to reevaluate events in my past or past mindsets and interpret them with objectivity. In this way, I detach from struggle by creating something physical, tangible and visible in its place. I work intuitively and through observation as I explore my emotions, memory and the physical constraints of materials. I challenge my societal conditioning, specifically trying to learn from my always evolving personal truth and weeding out other people’s words, institutional fallacy and Western consumer culture.
My content is stemmed in the physicality of my work. I grew up in Orange County, California obsessed with the opinion of others and how others viewed me. I believed that if I didn’t fit in their box, people would withdraw their love and I would be rejected. While in pursuit of this distorted image, I developed disordered eating, which escalated to Binge-eating and Bulimia by the time I was twelve. This was largely cultivated through cultural and social pressures who suggest that by taking drastic measures to be and stay thin, I would be beautiful and therefore accepted.
I create in various dimensions because I process information differently in each. Sculpture, drawing, writing and painting predominantly define my practice. Through my art, I express the physical senses that are triggered and emotions evoked when I am consumed by addiction. I enjoy making pieces that possess nauseating imagery and themes opposed with pleasing and indulgent color. My work aims to simultaneously attract and disgust viewers, which parallels the history of my relationship with my body and consumption. These works often includes forms that suggest the figure, intestines and food. By creating shapes that suggest all of these things, the viewer is able to find their personal connection to the piece in relation to their own experiences in and with their body.